What do you mean you have felt like an outsider all of your life? [Like you somehow didn’t belong here; and IF you did you’ve never been able to discover your purpose]. Bullshit! ; The only problem is: you haven’t properly learned the rules of the game. Like CRAPS: if you establish the rhythm, you’ll come away a winner every time. While you’ve been busy carving out a rat’s hole for yourself to adapt, you’ve tried to emulate others, “doing your best to fit in”. You needed to impress and be impressed. How exhausting!  The truth is: you never really impress anyone and neither are you impressed. You know that. What makes you are so unbelievably miserable comes from not knowing where you belong. You don’t know where you really want to be. You can’t find home, Dorothy!!! You don’t know who you are, what you want or what it would take to make you happy. And, you certainly don’t know what it is you want to do with the rest of your life. You try in vain to lock the doors, shut the curtains while you cover your head in bed. But, you only end up feelin g suffocated, debilitated and angry. So mad because you can’t snap your fingers and make it all better.

            Sure. You’ve tried different things; with each hoping “IT” would be the one thing you’re looking for that would fulfill your needs. It’s not. So, you try educating yourself and then you realize you don’t really like what you are pursuing. The subject simply doesn’t interest you enough to spend your entire life doing it. It seems you are perpetually going round and round in circles ending up in the same ole’ place, facing the some ole’ dilemma not knowing how to resolve your particular situation. You know ‘in your gut’ there’s gotta be an answer for you. But, you just don’t seem to be able to find it.  

            The truth is: you don’t want to see it. Why? Because you will have to make some pretty hard choices and decisions based upon what you discover. You no longer will be able to maintain the face of inaccuracy. You’ll no longer be able to hide behind the façade of stupidity or the one that didn’t get20the breaks. Or, more impressively the one who simply couldn’t overcome the massive odds you faced as a child, “no one had it any harder than you”. How many times do you fall into that fish tank?  No one every really ever understood or appreciated you. You had to hide most of your life from your family and friends. You must come clean with yourself and who it is you are and what it is you truly want.

Stop saying you were deprived of anything. That Clorox picture of awakening will involve a process of elimination.  {The elimination of wanting to appear “good.”}A cleaning out the closets, if you will. You’ll overhaul certain aspects of your life that are currently hindering your personal progress.  You will begin with your nasty “I’ve been done so wrong” attitude. It reeks! Next, send everyone that has attended your pity party: HOME.  It’s time you spent some well-deserved time in worthwhile cosmic community service. Get in your secret chamber and don’t come out until you can stop lying to yourself and others. Start the process of physically unloading the excess junk in your home, relationships, career, car and life. Realize just how gluttonous your appetite is.(Perfectly alright/expected but not when it serves as a distraction or a means to pacify) You area voracious hungry animal who needs to be fed. Feed yourself first. Devour your life in unrelenting passion. Then and only then can you begin to live freely, authentically, sexually fulfilled and materially rich.  It’s all about you! It aint about nothing or nobody else. Get with that and you’ll get it.


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